Not A Game

[Verse 1]
I used to count the hands that held more light than mine
Measured every step against an unseen line
Thought if you were rising, I must fall behind
Didn’t see the walls were only in my mind

[Pre-Chorus]
Every win I chased was wearing someone’s name
Every loss I feared was feeding into shame

[Chorus]
When I thought life was a game
I was keeping score in the dark
Drawing lines across the sky
Trying to divide one heart

But the moment I let go
Of the need to claim a side
All the numbers disappeared
There was nothing left to divide

[Verse 2]
Somewhere in the noise, I forgot how to be
Turned every mirror into rivalry
But your joy was never stealing mine away
Just a different color in the same sunrise

[Pre-Chorus]
What I tried to hold was never mine to keep
What I called “the end” was just a turning leaf

[Chorus]
When I thought life was a game
I was losing just to win
Building kingdoms out of dust
Calling emptiness a sin

But the moment I stepped back
From the edge of “me” and “you”
All the weight I carried fell
Like it never had been true

[Bridge (soft, almost spoken)]
No winners… no losers…
Just a river changing form
No higher… no lower…
Just a self being reborn

[Outro]
Now I walk without a score
Nothing gained and nothing lost
Just a quiet kind of wealth
That was never bound by cost

And if there was a game at all—
It was learning how to see…
There was never you or me
Only this… unfolding, free